But I keep going. Word by word, struggling sentence after struggling sentence. Until I finally do it, I finish my first book.
The next moment is faded in my memory. I had closed the book and nothing else seemed relevant. Who knows if I even ate afterwards? All I can remember is that moment of pure happiness.
My grandfather passed away nine years later.
The man who had gifted me his time had run out of it.
We glorify those who are no longer with us, and I never hesitate to glorify my grandfather. I was his first grandchild, and it showed. Without meaning to, he passed his essential traits to me. He taught me what love looks like when it’s quiet — when it’s simply being — and I was there to witness it.
As a child, I didn’t understand it. Now, I see how he taught me to appreciate myself. This man chose never to point out my flaws. Never to let out an accidental derogatory comment when something upset him, never to raise his voice, never to throw blame my way.
In all the stories I was privileged enough to read, there were always characters that showed some level of imperfection, but it is a beautiful thing to look back at someone with bias. My grandfather must’ve been human too, filled with flaws, with mistakes. But not to me. To me, his memory remains uncorrupted. My mind paints him as who he was when he was with me, when it was just the two of us. And to me, he was perfect. To me, he has always been the person who sat with me, patiently, until I finished the entire book.
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This article appears in the April 2026 issue of Edify